Memoir Monday

I remember the night of my cousins 21st birthday. It was the first time I did something horrible. It was 7:00PM and his party was around 8:00PM, and all of us were ready, dressed, excited but me. I just opened my eyes from the sleep and saw the clock ticking, I was so tired and after I saw the clock ticking and so was my heart if I would be late. I was selfish and told my dad that I will be ready for 50 minutes, but soon after he went to buy some things to enjoy the party a little more I immediately said to myself: Hah! now I can do what I want. The bed was staring at me and I was so tired, I succumbed to the bed and I saw a gruesome dream of me missing the party so I just wanted the dream to end, go away!. I finally managed to open my eyes and after two minutes I was totally awake. The clock was 7:53 and I was not dressed. I looked to the collection of the clothes dad let there for me to wear. I got dressed but then the clock was 7:59 . Oh my god said I to myself. I couldn't find the door key and I saw the balcony. And there it happened. I spontaneously jumped from the first floor and crashed to the garden. I couldn't feel my legs and I could see the party but I couldn't go into it. I was sure it would be 8:00 by then and I couldn't stand up. I screamed and screamed : DAD DAAAAD! But no one came. I didn't really know what happened but I saw my family standing there next to me and trying to help me get up, but nothing helped. I was dizzy and dad picked me up and sent me to the hospital. After 1 hour of excruciating pain I could walk again but not more than 10 minutes. The doctor said it would pass after a few weeks but all I could think about was: What is going to happen now? Will I get punished? I was scared and after we went to my house all my family was waiting there to hear some news about me, as soon as I entered the room all my family came and hugged me so I could barely breath! I said: I am so sorry for what I did, I was selfish and unconscious for what I did. I am sorry to miss your party cousin, I am sorry for everything that i brought home. They forgave me. And from that moment on I realized that I don't need to be selfish or careless, as soon as the next day occurred we started the postponed party. It was really fun and I regret the things that I did yesterday to prevent it for happening, and I wish I can go back to time and re-do that moment of my life and never make the mistake of : Jumping ( If I am to late) being selfish, and most of all dis-respectful.