The Surgery
Night grew
within. The devil inside me awakening, or should I say the infestation of
my appendix.
It was a regular night just like any other but something wasn’t in order.
I was glad
to come back from school on a Friday evening. I was finally done with my
homework (I
like to finish my homework as soon as I come back from school) and I
decided to
hop on to my computer and play videogames. As I was playing, a strange
feeling came
along and started to daunt me very badly. I thought it was nothing
serious so I
decided to give it a rest and just sleep early for the night. I woke up the
next day
feeling completely off my regular self, the pain being double from last night
and it left
me shocked because it came from a different place but still near the
original
origin of the pain. Alone but not lonely I was feeling accompanied by the pain
which didn’t
seem to be relinquishing at any time soon. I did not now what to do but
luckily my
parents came soon after. “Dad. I have a excruciating pain in my stomach
since last
night.” My mother thought alike with my dad. It was just simple stomach
ache, but
something inside of me knew it was deeper than that. Something was lying
beneath it
all just waiting to be uncovered and cause chaos. In my favour, there was
something
that took my mind away from the pain on TV. My family sat around me so
that they
could make me some company and not leave me alone with the darkness
lurking
beneath. I can’t remember what had happened after I woke up 2 hours later.
It seemed
that I was being taken away by the world created by my mind (I was
sleeping.) I
thought the pain had finally gone away with that pill and that good 2 hour
rest but I
was proven wrong soon enough when the pain came back to wince me. At
this point
it seemed to be something serious even from my parent’s point of view. It
was a
Saturday night and we decided to pay the hospital a visit to check if
everything
would be
fine soon. The drive there appeared to be interminable and I felt the pain
worsening
with every passing hour. We finally arrived at the hospital which is Hell to
everyone.
From the looks of it, it appeared to be a bad hospital but it was one of the
few close
and open. After a long 40 minute wait, a Doctor finally called out our family
name :
“Vigan Osmani?” said the Doctor. “That would be my son,” Answered my
father. He
appeared to be confused and sad about the way I felt. The first thing that
had to be
done was to take a blood sample out of my veins. I know, it seems
daunting but
I seriously didn’t feel the pain, probably because my stomach was
keeping my
head really busy focusing on the pain. Sadly we had to wait another 30
minutes for
the samples to come and show if there was any bacteria or other
suspicious
things hiding in my blood which was the factor of the pain. My dad was
scared that
if it were bacteria it would be something more serious than a regular
virus or a
simple stomach ache. Time was passing by so slowly, and the pain didn’t
seem to give
me a break at any point. Finally, the doctor came back with a assuring
face, which
gave me a grin as well. The blood was clear and most happily: No
bacteria.
“So what is it doctor, what’s causing me so much pain?” I asked in a
confused
manner. “You just ate something bad. I’ll give you a painkiller and it should
be gone by
tomorrow.” He seemed sure. Well we were back home and the painkiller
wasn’t doing
anything to relieve the pain away. I couldn’t stand it. It wasn’t letting
me do
anything yet hardly sleep but somehow I finally succumbed. The next morning
the pain had
tripled and yet again, came from a different origin. This time I felt it
come from my
lower right abdomen. My appendix was the main cause of this pain I
thought. It
must’ve been. My parents were out on their morning coffee and I had to
call them
and tell them it was an emergency. The pain at this point was so
unbearable I
was absolutely unable to rise from my bed yet do any movement. My
parents came
very quickly and I was sure they might’ve broke a few speeding tickets
but they had
arrived. Once I told them where the pain came from, their faces
immediately
had swollen down and they had a hopeless look. This shook fear in me
and it gave
me the urge to ask: “What’s wrong, what does this mean?” I asked them.
My dad isn’t
someone who hides things from me so he honestly said: “Well, it could
mean you might
need a operation son.” He said devastatingly. That point had
instilled
the biggest fear that I ever felt inside of me. A surgery would be life
changing
and I
already have something that has changed my life, my vision, which is extremely
terrible.
“An operation, are you kidding me?!” I responded extremely disappointed.
My parents
knew that the pain was almost definitely a crime of what had appeared
to be
Appendicitis. I took hold of our iPad and did some research on this new word I
learned that
could be the change of my life, while my dad was on the phone with his
co-worker
trying to figure out a good hospital for me. As I was researching I stumbled
across
something which completely brought upon me a new true level of fear. The
title of the
article was “Death by appendicitis.” At that point I had started to shiver
while
thinking I could lose my life at only the age of 14. My family assured me that
it
wasn’t that
big of an operation but they could not take away the inevitable pain
inside. My
mom was packing some of my clothes in a bag and it left me confused.
“Mom, what
are you doing?” I asked her. “Well, if in the worst case scenario you are
to have an operation you most likely have to
spend the night or more at the
hospital.”
My most feared thoughts could come alive. Being trapped in hospital with
nothing to
do but wait and think of how the world is shaping out without me.
Everything
was packed and I was ready to go face what was about to be bestowed
upon me.
What struck me the most was: What were the odds that I would be having
surgery on
the day of my brother’s birthday? Yeah, they seemed to be very low but
they somehow
enveloped. The bumps during the road were causing me so much
pain and at
a few points I was telling myself “Bring me death please, just end it I beg
you.” After
a devastating drive we had finally reached the what appeared to be the
best
hospital in Panama City. I was barely capable to walk, and I finally sat down.
We
waited about
20 minutes for someone to come and do a check on me. They inserted
needles
inside my veins and they had to do another blood check. The symptoms
appeared to
be a positive match to the ones of Appendicitis, and that didn’t look well
for me or my
parents. We were waiting for a experienced doctor to arrive, and it
took a good
hour for him to finally reach us. During that time my parents kept the
thought of
the pain away while trying to establish a conversation. When the doctor
arrived, we
all looked happy. He was very experienced with the type of surgery and
he was a
good person. He knew English which was the most assuring part to me. He
asked me a
few questions about the pain and did some analysis. We had to wait
approximately
2 hours for the report to come back which held the key to my future. I
was starting
to shiver again, and I was extremely anxious to know what I was about
to face. The
doctor said they had to do one more final analysis to be 100% sure I had
Appendicitis.
They took me to a room with a weird machine. I was asked to sit down
with my stomach
lying upright straight and just be calm. They put a extremely cold
liquidly
substance which scattered around my stomach and put the object around it
just like in
a pregnancy test. This made me feel embarrassed to be honest, but it had
to be done.
The reason for this test was to check whether the origin of the pain was
indeed the
appendix and to see whether it was about to burst or not. After a few
minutes the
doctor came with a paper in his hands saying: “I am afraid you are
required to
do the surgery.” He said sadly. We received this information in a
disappointing
manner and my father had to ask about the procedure which had to be
done. He
knew how it would be done but what we did not know was that, along with
technology
doctors had developed a new way to do the surgery. Instead of cutting a
long line on
my stomach they just had to do 3 little dots. This procedure was way
more
accurate and in every possible way better from the old one. The outcome was
also better.
I just realized that there would be a outcome. I would have to face 3 little
scars for
the rest of my life, but once again it had to be done in order to save my life.
The doctor
gave us a few minutes to make me ready for the procedure and to say
goodbye to
my family. I couldn’t set myself in the place of my parents. Their own
creation was
about to receive a change for life and there was absolutely nothing they
could do to
fight it but let me go and have faith in the doctors who were about to
execute the
procedure. We were set and the bed I was on was being taken to the
room where
the operation would be held. My family came with me till the room
where we
would part. I noticed my mother cry and I remember the exact same
words she
said to me: “Don’t be scared son, you will be all fine.” She said trying to
assure me.
What scared me was that, for once in these two most miserable days of
my life, I
was not feeling pain or fear, for real the pain had vanished but this was the
cause of so
much pressure. We entered the room. I parted with my parents, and now
my future
was in the hands of the doctors. They slowly started to insert the
anaesthetic
in my veins and this excited me. I always had been curious how it works
and I
finally was about to test it on my own body and see how I would just fall
asleep.
I was put on
the operating table, and that point I lost control of my body and the
shivering
finally came back, a shiver I could not control. I was shivering so much that I
felt my
whole body move and that was the point I started to feel that old fear again.
The doctor
asked me some questions like “What is your school like?” or “Where are
you from?”
Questions like that so that the anaesthetic would take over me and the
surgery
could start. Onwards from there on, I cannot remember falling asleep or
anything
just when I was about to be reborn as the new operated me.
Post Surgery
I had woken
up from what appeared to be the endless pulling away from the hell
within to
find myself in a bed with a lot of sheets to keep me warm and a hot breeze
flowing from
the machines of the bed. That was the most tired part that I had ever
felt during
my short yet eventful life. I could barely speak, I did not know what to say,
couldn’t
look around and I just felt like sleeping some more, going back to that
endless
dream. Soon a person came to check whether I was awake so that they could
call my
family and the doctors to check on me. God, I could honestly not move a limb
and only
talk in a subtle manner. I felt outside of my body not being to control
anything. Shortly
a few visitors had arrived to see me. I was so happy to see them.
They all
followed me to my room which I was supposed to spend the night in. I
couldn’t
think about anything or anyone I just wanted to rest. I needed to take a lot
of pills in
order to keep the post pain away. My brother and parents stood next to me
and I felt
very safe. They would remain in the room for another hour until eventually
it was 11:00
P.M. and they were arranging who would spend the night with me.
Someone had
to go home, feed our cat and keep the house clean. After a long talk
between
them, they decided that my father would stick with me until tomorrow. I
said goodbye
to my mom and brother and I also told my brother: “Sorry for ruining
your
birthday bro.” He was fine with it as long as I was going to be fine and be
home
by tomorrow.
I was awaken by some nurses and my dad who asked me whether I
wanted a
shower or go to the bathroom. I actually did need to go but about the
shower I
seriously said: “Are you kidding me?” It took 4 people to take me to the
bathroom and
I couldn’t move alone because of the post external pain. I still
remember the
pain as if it were yesterday. After I reached the bathroom I real
ised I
couldn’t do anything and there it happened. I had passed out. That was the
first
time I ever
faded away. I woke up only about 20 seconds later but it seemed to be as
a whole
eternity. “Why can’t these people just let me sleep?” I thought. I woke up
with a woman
rubbing a paper cloth with a strong alcohol odour around my nose to
wake me up
and keep me calm. They rubbed it around my face as well. It really woke
me and my
senses. I had two extremely cold plastic bags filled with ice on my
stomach to
take the post pain from the operation sites away. Achh, I can feel the
pain as I
write this right now, and I know it will always and eternity haunt me. I
finally
took a look
at my stomach and I had 3 paper cloths strongly glued to my stomach on
the spots
they had operated and trust me: You don’t want to feel that pain.
Whenever I
wanted to move or do anything I had to call for help. And very soon the
anaesthetic
and the strong medicine were taking over my body and they made me
vomit. This
was another part of my experience in which I just felt like dying. I had
puked a lot
and it hurt every single part of me, mentally and physically. I had puked
my guts out
and at last I stopped. I could rest again and fall asleep. The last sight
before I
would be taken away by the dream world was the nurse inserting the
painkiller
inside the infusion. Not short after my sleep, I had woken up again which
wasn’t a
surprise now, and I started to yell for my dad: “BRING ME THE BOX, I HAVE
TO VOMIT
AGAIN.” I said not sure of what I was feeling. I puked hard again and my
dad was
there to support me at all times. He called in the nurses and asked why I was
puking so
much. They said that it was normal due to the painkillers. The internal pain
had finally
gone away but the ashes it left were also very disrupting. Whenever I
would move
it would hurt me a lot.
At last, it
was morning again. I woke up to see my mom’s face greeting me along with
my dad and a
few nurses. They had brought me some food which to be honest
wasn’t
really good. The feast was good and it had given me energy again after so
long, yet
that energy came to be vanished once more when I had to vomit. The pain,
it was
always there, never leaving me alone. It had become my new companion, but I
certainly
wanted to get rid from it. I kept being assured it would go away in a few
days but I
wouldn’t know. Soon, a visit from the doctor who was in charge of the
surgery gave
me hope again. He was a really fine man and doctor. He’s the kind that
you just
feel safe with. I told him about the pain and he said that it was perfectly
fine
and normal
that I was experiencing them. One part that finally had me grin for the
first time
was when he said: “If you do good, I will promise that I will release you and
by tonight,
you can go home and move on with your life.” My parents had different
shifts to
stay with me. My dad would only visit during his job breaks, while my mom
was always
there with me. I got pulled away from real life to fall asleep for a short
while. I
woke up due to the pain but I woke up to see a good sight: My mom had
brought me
her extremely well cooked and loving home food. I was glad to be eating
something
good so I could be able to survive the rest of the day. I couldn’t eat a lot
but I did
eat enough so I can resist for about 10 hours.
The clock
was ticking 5:30 P.M and by this time my dad would be released from work
and he would
come to stay with me. Once he arrived he told my mom to go home
and
rest:”Don’t worry. I’ll take care of him, you go rest.” I felt like puking
again and I
was right
when I puked 1 minute later. This would be my last time puking my dad
assured me
while he asked the nurses not to give me any more painkillers and that I
would be
fine without them, I was actually alright for about 2 hours until I felt a
burning pain
inside of my stomach again. I was glad that it wasn’t coming from the
site of my
appendix but from the centre of my stomach, yet it still hurt like hell, but
at least I
had stopped puking. I had one last sleep before it became night and I saw
my mom and
dad both waiting for me to wake up and waiting for the doctor to arrive
and for him
to decide whether I was ready to be released or whether I was to be held
for one more
night. My dad was starting to get pissed of due to the doctor being a
little late,
but he finally arrived. They were discussing payment info and once they
settled that
the doctor checked me and said that I was ready and could leave the
hospital. I
was so happy to hear those words. I was about to leave the place which
caused me so
much suffering. I was getting dressed and I tried to walk around for a
while, just
to be meeting the horrific external pain again. It was really life sucking to
be honest. I
walked for about 5 minutes and then I decided that I couldn’t do it
anymore so I
went back to the bed until some final paper work was being done. They
were
assigning a few after pills in case of major pain. The entire crew came to say
goodbye and
I was really astonished by how good they took care of me, but now it
was time to
move on with my life and go home. I was put on a wheelchair until I
would get in
the car. The pain was really killing me, but I was only thinking about my
future after
this interminable pain would somehow finally go away.
A few days
had passed and the pain was still, always there with me. I had to meet the
doctor again
so he could take the paper cloths off of me and tell me how I was doing.
He told me
that I was the easiest patient he had operated on. He told me the pain
would go
away in about 3 days and then he took the cloths away from me. It was
then when I
and the freedom I was seeking for so long finally crossed paths and came
together. The
doctor was right, the pain and I shared our final goodbyes and it
decided to
go hunt for another host which it could infest and be locked in so it can
cause chaos
once more. I experienced what evil really means and It is not something
that is
pleasant. I had experienced rebirth as a new human being. I had experienced
whole new
feelings I thought I would never feel that past week. I had experienced
how much I
really mean to my family. I was taught some valuable life lessons but
let’s be
honest everyone. Let’s start again. Hello it’s me. Its so nice to meet you,
feels
like the 1st
time.